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Saturday, September 26, 2009

pOwEr Of ThE pReIsThOoD




Back in April some of you know that I had found out I had a 4 cm cyst on my right ovary,my doctor told me to watch it through out the summer & that it should go away. It was very painful & I had to have some patience & faith that it would go away. Well in June Greg & I went to a Gyno in Atlanta,Georgia because that is where we were living for that month. We were expecting to hear bad news, well lets say I was Greg was very calm but I always think the worse in every situation. To my surprise the cyst had shrunk down to 2cm & we were both so relieved. Since than I gradually started having more & more pain but just thought it was a bladder infection & didn't think anything of it,I mean well why would I? the gyno told me the 2cm would be gone within two weeks. WRONG!!!! This last Tuesday night I attended a relief society Activity about Emma Smith anything involving Joseph Smith & his history I try to go to because He is my hero & a big part of my testimony. I can also relate with Emma Smith on a lot of things. As me,my mom & my sister in law Katee sat & listened to this amazing talk I suddenly had a sharp pain hit on my left side and than suddenly spread to my right side, I tried to ignore it but it felt like a thousand knives stabbing me all over my abdomen ,down to my pelvic area, and to my lower back. Suddenly my legs went numb,I than started getting dizzy because of how intense the pain was I told my mom I had to go to the bathroom but as I stood up to walk out I could barely move my legs. I went & laid in my car to see if maybe it would pass . I texted Greg at this point & told him about it but told him I would be fine, next thing I know I couldn't concentrate on texting & just curled in a ball & started crying.Than my car door opened & it was my husband (this was all going on while the Emma smith conference was still in session) he pulled me out of the car picked me up and took me to my Mom's house he kept trying to get me to talk back and was trying everything but I just kept seeing blur & it felt like I couldn't put my words together to get out what I wanted to say & what I wanted to say was "I can't feel my legs I only feel pain,it hurts when you touch my hips or even when I move" I finally got out what I could get out & the only thing I wanted to say at that point was that I want my mom!!! He put me in the car & I just kept saying I want my mom I want my mom!!!! At this time me & Greg both were very scared because some things have happened to me in the past that may make it hard for us to conceive one day!!! So we were both panicking!! He made sure I had my little Jax to cuddle with and laid me down in the car. The whole way to the hospital I kept saying I want my mom I want my mom!!!We finally got into the emergency room & after the nurse had injected the morphine into my arm she left & I could see Greg's beautiful face again. He than said "honey I am going to give you a blessing ok!!" after he was finished I felt this immediate feeling of comfort overcome me & this feeling of knowing I had the holy ghost there with me ,like his arms were wrapped around me. This was before any of the morphine kicked in too. As we waited, my parents & my brother Kyle showed up & him, my dad & Greg gave me a blessing before I went in for the ultra sound !!! The doctor wanted me to pee in a cup but I couldn't it just hurt so bad so they had to empty my bladder somehow & the way they did it added to the discomfort & the pain!!! The nurse asked when the last time I went to the bathroom was & I told her not since the morning because I try to keep it in because it hurts to bad to go. She was shocked with how much was coming out of my bladder she said it had to be at least a liter!! When the morphine kicked in I was seeing butterflies I was so happy & felt so good ha ha I didn't really know what I was saying my family told me all I kept saying was "I just don't want it to hurt when me & Greg have sex anymore ""Please make it so it doesnt hurt to ahve sex with my husband" ha ha this had to be very awkward for my husband ,my brother,& my parents & probably those of you who are reading this right now ha ha. The fact I was repeating it wasn't helping either ha ha. So what it all came down to is that the same cyst that was 4cm than 2cm is now 5cm and there is one forming on my left ovary!!! Bad news is I have to have surgery which means I can't start school back up til November 1,;{ but good news is I will not have anymore cysts to worry about & the pain will be gone!!!I just want to thank my brother,my parents, & especially my husband for being there to support me . I am so thankful for the power of the preisthood & that I am lucky to have a husband who holds that power.


2 comments:

Unknown said...

I am so glad you are feeling better!! Cysts seriously are the WORST.

Unknown said...

Thanks Girl!! They are & so so painful.