I can feel you little missy!

It finally happened everybody. Yesterday as I was laying on the couch eating ice cream I felt my little princess kick! I didn't know it would happen so soon I thought for sure I wasn't going to start feeling her move for another two weeks but at 16 weeks and 3 days pregnant I felt what felt like popcorn popping. It was A-MAZ-ING! Tears came to my eyes & I called Greg at work right away. It couldn't have happened on a better day either. Earlier that morning I was walking out to my car to go to work and I slipped on a patch of ice and hurt my back,my tail bone and my arm. I was really confused as to why  on the one day I decided to not wear heels that I would fall. I was worried and I panicked . I went to see my doctor and turns out baby was perfectly safe! I was in bad shape but Londyn was perfectly safe & sound and that was all that mattered. He told me to take the day off & stay home & ice my tail bone and rest just in case. I don't know if any of you have ever fallen really hard while you were pregnant but it's a very scary thing and you can't help but imagine the worse. However though at that very moment at 1:00 p.m on a snowy Wednesday after noon  Londyn made her presence be known and assured me she was just fine. Within 5 minutes of that first kick I felt a couple more on the opposite side . My baby girl sure does have her daddy's energy. Since than I have felt her kick 2 more times. One just 10 minutes ago which prompted me to want to share just how magical it really is.I want to remember this moment for the rest of my life. I just can't get enough of it. I love being pregnant and am so excited for more little kicks to come. 

P.s I have to share my first of many baby purchases!

Londyn will look so cute in this. Shopping for my baby girl sure is fun!

We AskEd FoR a DauGHtER wE wErE sEnT a PrINcEss

          As most of you have heard by now Wednesday January 23,2013 at 15 weeks we found out our precious baby is a sweet baby girl! We are filled with so much joy & happiness. People tell me I am just glowing. I can see it in Greg too. I thought the happiest I had ever seen him was when we found out we were pregnant back in November but ever since Wednesday I have seen my husband happier than I have ever seen him before. I know that may come as a surprise to some of you seeming that  most husbands want a baby boy, but not mine.Don't get me wrong he would have been thrilled to have a boy and we both hope our second baby will be our little Beckham Gregory but we both have been hoping & praying for our little princess. When Greg & I started trying to conceive years ago we would always say things like "she is just waiting for us to get our stuff together so she can come down" or Greg would always call the baby a her while we prayed saying "please watch over our little princess" . We have always visioned our little girl running around in her tutu  laughing & playing with us. I have always known since dating Greg that he would be an awesome daddy to a little girl . He has such a patient,kind,playful,silly and gentle soul that it's obvious he was meant to be a little girls daddy. People always tell me I needed to have a little girl because I love doing hair,shopping,styling, and I am all girly girl. Although, I think I would have just as much fun styling our little boys hair as well. Since the age that I can remember I have wanted a little girl. People called us crazy because whenever we talked to them about our baby while we were pregnant we would say "she is making mommy very nauseous today" and "she hates it when mommy sleeps on the left side of the bed." people would laugh & say "watch your going to have a little boy" All my sisters and my brother all had girls first and the only nephew I have is my sisters little guy Kolby (on the Payne side that is,) but he is the only boy in her family. All of our first borns have been girls, we call it the Payne Family blessing/curse ha ha because all the guys are out numbered. 

A couple weeks before the gender ultra sound I went in to register at my doctors and they gave me a gift bag with all this awesome baby stuff and what we need to know about pregnancy. I brought it home & for our family home evening we both sat down and went through it all. Greg pulled out a sheet and on it it said Chinese calender 93% accurate on gender, we looked & it's determined by the age the mother was when she conceived & the month. Mine was 26 and October and there it said BOY! we both looked at each other and laughed with a little disappointment. Once again don't get me wrong we both really want to have a baby boy someday but for years we have been convinced that we were going to have our little princess. So over the next two weeks I had to force myself to think about having a little boy and I would start pinning boy clothes on pinterest and found really cute stuff but I couldn't help but keep going back to visioning our little girl & thinking about her.  I didn't totally believe the Chinese calender because well there were a lot of signs pointing to baby girl . For instance her heart beat, the doctor told us it was a good sign the baby would be a girl if it was above 140 & it has always been above 140. Greg's sister also told us all her girls had high heartbeats and her only boy had a slower one.I also kept having dreams about her . So I didn't quite know what to think those two weeks but I had to prepare myself & accept that we were not going to get our little princess just yet and I actually started getting really excited about our little boy . I would love a little mamas boy and for our little girl to have an older brother.

Wednesday morning before the doctors appointment we said a prayer and we asked our heavenly father what we ask him every day except this time we didn't say her or him we said our baby "please watch over our baby so that  he or she is healthy" as soon as our baby popped up on the ultra sound screen I knew in my heart she was a girl. We saw her little heart beating ,by the way this is the coolest thing I have ever seen! to hear the heart beat is one thing but to actually see my little angel's heart beating brought tears to my eyes and I was in  complete shock . The miracle of life is so beautiful. She kept moving & flipping . Greg said "she does not want to hold still" than I was like "come on girlfriend , uncross your legs"than the ultra sound lady said "look at her cute little toes,ah you guys now have me calling her a girl" and laughed. I went to the bathroom because we thought she might be squished with my full bladder and that was why she wasn't uncrossing her legs. When we came back her little hand popped up like she was either waving at us or telling us "STOP trying to look down there" ha ha at least we know she's modest. Right after that she uncrossed her legs, I couldn't see at first but Greg & the ultra sound tech could. The ultra sound tech turned to us and said "I am 100 % sure that right there is what appears to be the body part of a baby girl and the female organs. Congrats to both of you "and smiled at us. I looked really close and than I saw!!Wow!there she was, my beautiful baby girl I have dreamed of all my life.  I looked at Greg and he was crying ,I started crying. We knew it all along. There she was our beautiful baby girl confirming to us that what we felt in our hearts had been true all along.

Her name will be Londyn Ann Burke! our little princess.I love her so much . My friend told me that I was destined to have a girl and that I am going to make a great mommy to her because of all the trials I have faced in life and how strong I have become because of it. I hope with all my heart & soul that Londyn will never face anything close to what I have faced and I will do everything & anything to protect her. I know Greg will too.I just know she will have him wrapped around her little finger. He is going to be a great daddy and I am so happy I have a husband like him who's faith in the gospel is so strong. We make a great team and I can not wait for all the fun that comes with having a baby girl. Girls are hard though just ask my mom ha ha but it will all be worth it. Here are some awesome pics of that day and sorry I refuse to post the pic of my babys private part I feel that is inappropriate and just not for the worlds eyes.I don't mean to offend anybody and I don't judge those who do post it but we have decided we would like that to be private.We thank our heavenly father every day for our little princess and can not wait to meet her in July. Miracles really do happen & wishes really do come true. For this child we have prayed .

                           

BaBY bUrKe 15 WeEks

         How far along: 15weeks and 5  days

Symptoms:Lots of headaches,very sleepy, and still not gaining much weight but I am able to eat and hold it down and feed my little one. I am so happy the nausea is done with.

Sleep:I have been sooooooo tired. I make sure I get at least 9 hours of sleep at night because other wise I get nauseous the next day if I am to tired.I am comfy when I sleep people say that trying to stay comfortable sleeping while pregnant is hard but I haven't had problems with it not yet at least :)

Food Cravings::Jamba juice,,sweets,apples,Italian food,salad,and hot chocolate

Best Moment of the week:Finding out that Baby Burke is a GIRL!!!! Also seeing her little heart beat and she was waving at us on the ultra sound and showing us her face. It took her a while to finally uncross her little legs so we could see if she was a boy or girl but when she did we both lit up with excitement. I also have done some shopping and it's  so much fun shopping for girl stuff.We have both been hoping for a girl even before we got pregnant we always called the baby a her and since I have been pregnant every time Greg talks to the baby and rubs my belly he says "hi my little princess how are u today" we are so happy and so so excited

Movement: She is constantly moving but I can not feel just yet.

Labor Signs:Hopefully none until after week 38 at least.

Gender: Baby Burke is a GIRL!! we knew it all along

Belly button innie or outie:Innie

What I miss:sledding I miss sledding! I also miss ice skating I also miss snow mobiling not that I did a lot of it but I would like to go.

What I am looking forward to: I am looking forward to feeling my baby kick and move. She is always moving on the ultra sound and to feel that is going to be AMAZING. 

Milestones: Our little princess has all ten toes and all ten fingers. Her hair is starting to grow in and I have no doubt she will have LOTS of it.I no longer feel nauseous.It is so true what they say 2nd trimester is awesome. 

Weekly Wisdom;  People called me crazy when I told them we knew for sure we were going to have a baby girl before we found out from the doctor but I knew all along in my heart that our baby was a girl. people would say "you watch your going to have a boy or ya I thought and dreamt i was having a girl but turned out it was a boy ." because you know every pregnancy is the same! geez . I didn't care though I have actually come to quite enjoy proving people wrong & don't get me wrong I would love to have a little boy and hope to when we get pregnant with our second baby and his name will be Beckham but we prayed and we got answers that our baby was going to be a girl so if people ever tell you your crazy because you know something deep down inside to be true don't worry about them. Follow your heart & trust it. When I became pregnant I knew there were going to be tons of people judging me and telling me how to do this and I'm a bad mom because i do this but I chose to listen to the lord ,myself and the doctors and everything has turned out great I am so happy I trusted myself and the lord.

Stretch Marks: No . hopefully it stays this way

Embarrassing Moment: feeling nauseous and Throwing up in the bathroom at work. I don't know how people are so quiet throwing up when I throw up I sound like I am dying and so when I came out of the bathroom my boss & co-workers were like"wow are you ok?" ha ha they looked so concerned

Swelling:Nope!

Pregnancy Perk   I love nurturing my baby and I love how I feel more like a woman.I love shopping for my baby . I love dressing my bump . I can not wait to be a mommy and for Greg to be a daddy . He is going to be the best daddy EVER

Londyn says hi mommy & daddy!!

Happy day! Jan 23,2013! just found out we are having a baby girl

This whole idea was Greg's he is so cute

BaBy BuRkE 14 wEEkS

                                              
                        How far along: 14weeks and two days

Symptoms: I have a really bad cold but thats not from being pregers ha ha I have bad heartburn and get really bad headaches, I am having problems putting on weight, each week I weigh myself I am weighing less than the week before. I eat all the time I'm just not keeping the weight on I actually weigh ten pounds lighter than I did before I got pregnant.Doctor says the way I am built and how fast my metabolism is that I need not to worry but to make sure I eat eat eat. and I have no problem with that :) other than that I am doing great.

Sleep:I have been sleeping so good and now that I am done with first trimester I have energy in the morning again.I have however have been having crazy dreams so far this week I have dreampt about giant grasshoppers attacking our little family . ya totally weird

Food Cravings:Jamba juice,,sweets,hot dogs,orange juice,mcspicy from mcdonalds,sphegetti ,and cucumbers with vinager

Best Moment of the week:Being able to see my baby bump more

Movement: Baby is constantly moving but I can not feel just yet.

Labor Signs:Hopefully none until after week 38 at least.

Gender:We find out next week. Doc says this isn't for sure but when the baby has a heartbeat higher than 140  it usually means the baby is a girl and our little nuggets heartbeat is at 165.We would love to have either or and each one would be fun.If it's a boy his name will be Beckham and if it's a girl her name will be Londyn I have wanted the name London for over four  years and the name Beckham for over a year now.

Belly button innie or outie:Innie

What I miss:sledding I miss sledding! I also miss ice skating I also miss snow mobiling not that I did a lot of it but I would like to go.

What I am looking forward to: Finding out my babies gender next week,getting our gender reveal and name pics done and throwing our gender reveal party also  shopping for our baby of course.

Milestones: No more  feeling naucious.It is so true what they say 2nd trimester is awesome. 

Weekly Wisdom; if you love wearing high heels and are use to walking in them . WEAR THEM who cares what other people think they only wish they could walk in heels while they were pregnant ha ha. If you are use to walking in them and feel like wearing them do what u feel is right and ignore all the judgmental comments

Stretch Marks: No . hopefully it stays that way

Swelling:Nope!

Pregnancy Perk  eating whatever I feel like. I love nurturing my baby and I love how I feel morelike a woman. I can not wait to be a mommy and for Greg to be a daddy . He is going to be the best daddy EVER

Embarrassing Moment: Chasing our sunbeams around the church pregnant in heels I didn't fall once but I am sure I didn't look to great ha ha

BaBy BuRkE 13 WeEkS

How far along: 13 weeks and one day

Symptoms: Only nauseous at night. I have bad heartburn and get really bad headaches, I am having problems putting on weight I eat all the time I'm just not keeping the weight on I actually weigh ten pounds lighter than I did before I got pregnant.Doctor says the way I am built and how fast my metabolism is that I need not to worry but to make sure I eat eat eat. and I have no problem with that :) other than that I am doing great.

Sleep:I have been sleeping so good and now that I am almost done with first trimester I have energy in the morning again.I have dreamt about Greg holding our little girl,I also had a dream I was holding a little baby boy but he looked just like my niece Lucy so I think he was my brother and wife's second baby.

Food Cravings:Jamba juice,shrimp,sweets,crab meat,burger kings cini minis,and ranch dressing with salad

Best Moment of the week:Today at the doctors. I went in for a checkup and he was listening for the heartbeat but our little baby wouldn't hold still she or he kept flipping and moving around it was so cool to hear.

Movement: Baby is constantly moving but I can not feel just yet.she or he was really moving around today.

Labor Signs:Hopefully none until after week 38 at least.

Gender:We find out in 2 weeks. Doc says this isn't for sure but when the baby has a heartbeat higher than 140  it usually means the baby is a girl and our little nuggets heartbeat is at 165.We would love to have either or and each one would be fun.If it's a boy his name will be Beckham and if it's a girl her name will be Londyn I have wanted the name London for over four  years and the name Beckham for over a year now.

Belly button innie or outie:Innie

What I miss:sledding I miss sledding! I also miss ice skating

What I am looking forward to: Finding out my babies gender,getting our gender reveal and name pics done and throwing our gender reveal party also  shopping for our baby of course.

Milestones: No more morning sickness.It is so true what they say 2nd trimester is awesome. Baby can now taste and feel and touch..and our little peanuts vocal chords are now working.

Weekly Wisdom; give your husband credit and don't be to hard on him this is all new for him too and he is trying his best. Have fun dressing your bump just because your body is changing doesn't mean you can't dress cute and have fun dressing  the bump.It doesn't matter what anybody has to say about you and your baby. Listen to your doctor he knows what's best for you and your little one. Anybody who loves you and cares about you and your baby will support you and only stay positive about your pregnancy all the other miserable people who have to bring you down to feel better about their pathetic life  get  out of yours FAST! their not worth it!!!

Stretch Marks:Nope!I am crossing my fingers that it stays this way

Swelling:Nope!

Pregnancy Perk   I love being pregnant!! I love being able to use the excuse I am pregnant to  get out of things.I can eat all I want. I love seeing Greg change and become more protective and nurturing he is going to be a great daddy.I love the feeling of being a mommy and nurturing my baby.I love the fact of knowing how long we waited and how worth all the tears and wait was that we finally have been blessed with our little miracle. My whole perspective on life has changed for the better.

Embarrassing Moment: Bursting in to tears for no reason at all when I was talking with my friend the other day.

2012-OuR mIrACle YeAR

Back in 2009 Greg & I made a new years resolution, it began with 'This year we start our family"! Since than that has been our new years resolution every year. Over the years we lost hope,we cried,we prayed,we begged and we cried some more. Times got so hard & we just didn't understand. Unless you have been in the same situation or similar it's very hard to understand the pain and the sorrow. Friends & family kept getting pregnant & we were so happy for them but we couldn't help but be a little selfish and think it's not fair? I would be lying if I tried to hide that feeling and nobody can tell me that they would feel differently had being in my position. On new years eve 2011 we made our resolution once again but this time with hope & faith that 2012 was going to be our year.I had this feeling deep down inside that 2012 was going to be the year.Though I ignored it and lost hope at times I always knew.I started Chlomed April 2012 and it didn't work the first time instead I got a huge ovarian cyst, it was such a disappointment. Doctors told us the next step would be invitro if the second round of chlomed did not work and I just fell in to Greg's arms and cried. How could the lord do this to us? I asked. I am so thankful for Greg because even though I could see how sad and disappointed he was he always held strong for me and helped me to look forward. All we wanted was to start our family and give our baby the best life possible. Over the years I really slipped away I fell in to a darkness that I wouldn't  not wish on my worse enemy. I did things I am not proud of to cover up my hurt . In June 2012 I had to get surgery to get that big cyst removed. My doctor ran tests while I was in surgery to find out if everything was working ok and sure enough it was, everything was normal.Greg also didn't have anything wrong with him so we just didn't understand.My doctor was positive that putting me on chlomed again would work this time and I got so mad at him sometimes because I felt like my feelings were not being validated on how worried I was the chlomed wouldn't work again and how worried I was that he wasn't more worried. He just kept assuring me everything was fine and how sure he was we would conceive. So as I was on the chlomed for the second time I decided to work on myself and get my life under control and better myself. I focused on the positive . I prayed more,I never gave up hope,I focused more on improving my marriage and  improving my relationship with the lord.Sure enough on November 14,2012 after my third & last month of chlomed we received the best news ever our little miracle is  finally going be joining us on July 15,2013. I can not describe how happy and how relieved we were to hear that. When I heard my baby's heart beat for the first time I felt something I had never felt before !!! We were speechless and we couldn't stop crying. We finally did it .If you are going through anything like I had to go through stay strong and never give up hope and I promise the wait is totally worth it. We know that our baby is so special that heavenly father just wanted more time with him or her before he had to share this miracle with us. Here is to the year 2013, the year our little miracle will be joining our family!!!

12 Weeks -Baby Burke

How far along: 12 weeks 3 days

Symptoms: Only naucious at night. I have crazy heartbearn but I am feeling much better and have more energy

Sleep:I have been sleeping so good and now that I am almost done with first trimester I have energy in the morning again.I have dreamt about Greg holding our little girl,I also have been having dreams about chocolate cake mmmmm

Food Cravings:Jamba juice,shrimp,steak,olive garden,pasta and sweets my mouth waters up even thinking about yummy sweets.

Best Moment of the week: making my first baby purchase but I am not telling what it is until I know the gender

Movement: Baby is constantly moving but I can not feel just yet.

Labor Signs:Hopefully none until after week 38 at least.

Gender:We find out in 3 weeks. Doc says this isn't for sure but when the baby has a heartbeat higher than 140  it usually means the baby is a girl and our little nuggets heartbeat is at 175.We would love to have either or and each one would be fun.If it's a boy his name will be Becham and if it's a girl her name will be London I have wanted the name London for over four  years and the name Becham for over a year now.

Belly button innie or outie:Innie

What I miss:sledding I miss sledding! I also miss ice skating

What I am looking forward to: Finding out my babies gender and  shopping for our baby of course.

Milestones: No more morning sickness. Baby can now feel and touch..and our little peanuts vocal chords are now working.

Weekly Wisdom; give your husband credit and don't be to hardon him this is all new for him too and he is trying his best. Have fun dressing your bump just ebcause your body is changing doesn't mean you can't dress the bump.It doesn't matter what anybody has to say about you and your baby. Listen to your doctor he knows what's best for you and your baby. Anybody who loves you and cares about you and your baby will support you and only stay positive about your pregnancy all the other miserable people who have to bring you down to feel better about their pathetic life  get  out of yours FAST! their not worth it!!!

Stretch Marks:Nope!

Swelling:Nope!

Pregnancy Perk I love being pregnant!! I can eat all I want. I love seeing Greg change and become more protective and nurturing he is going to be a great daddy.I love the feeling of being a mommy and nurturing my baby.I love the fact of knowing how long we waited and how worth all the tears and wait was that we finally have been blessed with our little miracle. My whole perspective on life has changed for the better.

Embarrassing Moment:Going out to dinner on enw years eve and being so sick that we had our food boxed up before it even arrived to the table.